Monday, May 23, 2005

this is my latest blog...but not my last...i just, havent had time to sit down and properly think about my life so far. lately, actually since i came to this new place, i havent thought of anything other than my best friend. its hard to, he is the only person i think will stand by me here. i have old friends...old as in i have known them for a very long time. i miss them. i hope they miss me too. its hard fitting in sometimes. when you dont play the same way...when you dont speak the same way, people dont trust you. i guess i dont trust easily either.

i feel i am becoming a weaker person by the day. i came from total distrust of others, into trusting someone with more than my life. i cant help but feel that sometimes they might betray me, even though in my heart, i know, i KNOW they never would. but then whhy do i feel sometimes i cannot trust them? i get lost in my own thought, trying to figure him out. i do not need to think so much, he is my best friend.

i know...i know...

i would like to say sorry, those around me must wonder what im doing here. you must wonder too. i am here just like everybody else, trying to find my niche in life. a life not owned by one person, but a shared life, in which we all must participate.

its not hard. we all love.


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