other occurrences have been found of this happening and when tested, the needles were in fact positive for HIV
i feel so sorry for the lady if she is infected now, i cannot believe how some people can do that, can be so unhappy and so angry, so evil and criminal to inflict their own pain on somebody else. somebody so innocent as a woman or even child going to watch an innocent movie. sometimes, i wish for capital punishment in this country. ino i got upset about van nguyen and how capital punishment is wrong, but some people are just so inhumane, they deserve nothing more than to rot in a cell or die.
i dont get things in life. i dont get how i can be so fucked up sometimes, and ok other times. normally, i would just shut myself in my shell, not let anybody get to me, and keep continuing to exist. but this is so different. i have been crying for hours, trying to get things out of my system. my heart tells me i have made the wrong decision, but my head tells me i have done the right thing. why should i give a stuff about someone who doesnt appreciate me, doesnt even give me a call once in a while without having to be asked to. but then again, how can i even think of giving up a friendship with someone i care so much about. i wonder to myself why i stick around if he doesnt call, doesnt care enough to find out how im going, doesnt want to do anything, doesnt seem to care if i see them tomorrow or in 5 weeks. i cant seem to live a day without wondering how pete's going, what he's thinking, what his day has entailed. maybe im stupid and weird? i think i just care about my brother. i get stuck between thinking i should give up on him and move on because he is so selfish and immature, but drawn in because he is my little brother and it's my duty to always be there for him as i have promised.
i have spoken to some of my friends, and they wonder why i am still hanging around. but they only know me as what i used to be when i left darwin, someone cold and callous, able to switch off my emotions if necessary. but since coming here, i guess i changed, i guess i lost the ability to switch things off cos they matter ot me more. to tell the truth, i dont want to lose him as a best friend. i think aside from all the crap, there is nobody that i get along with better. when we fight, we still stick together. when we are happy, of course we are together. my friend was asking me how my holidays were going and how was peter...and i explained to him how i had broken away from it. and he could understand why. he couldnt understand why i had broken up a friendship that was so close. but people dont always know whats going on underneath, dont see the pain and suffering that silently goes on while people keep up their facade.
i still am undecided about what to do. i have been trying to work at fixing the little things over the past 12 months. but nothing has really changed. i try and talk and figure things out, but i never seem to get to have time to talk about it, something else always comes up between him and me. should i waste my time trying anymore, or am i stupid to even be in this predicament in the first place? someone told me to weigh up the good against the bad, and i did that. but then i still couldnt convince myself that it was any reason to break up a friendship, some words on paper. i want things to change, but i dont know how to make it happen. i dont know how to be happy, and him be happy too. its either him happy, or nothing in his books. take this situation: we were deciding on what movie to watch. i said to him that he should pick. he picked a crap movie in my view and i said pick another. so he told me to pick. thats the way it works for him. thats fine by me. but when it comes to sorting something out, i say to him that we have to work something out. so he tells me to work it out, at which point i ask him if he will try at what i decide, and he says yes. but if i pick something that doesnt suit him, he doesnt try, and he doesnt want to try and sort it out. i just dont know what to do anymore. i dont know why i am the one who has to take on the responsibility all the time, and then when i try and figure things out, he doesnt want to know about it if it isnt his cup of tea. i just dont know what to do anymore. someone please help me.
if i had what would be best, i would still have a best friend, and we would be happy all the time. there was once a time when that was the case,but alas, that is long behind us now. and i dont know why. we always said best friends forever and that nothing would ever come between us...i never thought that the day would come where it would be so hard for me to like him.
any delinquents reading this, whether aussie or foreign, if i ruled the country (which unfortunately i dont) your ass would be on a rickety boat back to your dirty country, never to return. now if only john howard could grow a backbone and do more than just talk about it on radio.
This band from Queensland put on a great live show with a lead singer who comes across as rather unhinged. At one point he was leaning down, screaming into the mic, i was taking photos and he lunged towards me and pretty much tackled me to the ground. Not in an aggressive way, more in a "i wonder what would happen if i did this" sort of way. After i picked myself up he just lay their continuing to sing from the floor.
I like a frontman (or woman) who is a little bit crazy, where you never know what they'll do next. Much more entertaining to watch.
these are some pics someone has taken of their tv while watching pocoyo ^_^
watashi o toorisugi ieji e kaette yuku
ano hi anata to konna fuukei
okutte kawashita ne
futari dake no takaramono o
kokoro de musubareta yakusoku
ima mo ima mo taisetsu ni
idaite itsuno hi ka anata ni atte soshite
hataseru sonna hi o
watashi shinjinagara sugoshitemasu
ima goro doko ni iru no deshou ka?
kawashita yakusoku kokoro ni mada aru kana
kisetsu watatte shibatta keredo
kawarazu ano koro no anata dato negatte imasu
omokage musurettemo yakusoku
ima mo ima mo kono mune no mannaka o atsuku shite
shikkari kokoro kokoro musubareteru
koto o watashi shinjinagara matteimasu
anata ni aetanara yakusoku sotto sotto
tazunetai ano hi no futari e to modoreru
naraba douka mouichido
yakusoku shite ne shinjinagara inottemasu
i dont even know why im writing this. i am so stupid sometimes. i wonder what my future holds. i used to be so sure. i used to be so confident. now im just a shy, worried cynic. i guess ive always been cynical though. oh well
what to do now. just keep living this existence.
not much else to do.
anyone who deals with photos a little more than just dragging them off your camera and onto your computer, go out and buy a mac (your not even a real photographer without a mac to edit them on ;)) and then plunk down $700 on aperture. it is DEFINATELY worth it.
the photos are all a bit dodgy cos i took them with my phone
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